I’m starting a self-love empowerment coaching business and put together 4 modules.

They include:
Self-love
Happiness/fears
Forgiveness
Healing

I’m looking for 4 volunteers to do the modules you could pick one or all 3. Healing is the recap of what we learned over the course of time.

Requirements:
Someone who is serious about changing their way of thinking.
Someone who is open and honest and not afraid to share how they feel.

The work involved is answering the basic questions in as much detail as possible.

From there I’ll tailor questions to your specific need and we’ll set goals and task for you to do.

I’m here to hold you accountable, but I also need you to hold yourself accountable.

I know life happens, but there can’t be too many excuses.

Trust me the process isn’t easy, but it’s worth it.

I’m an open book there will never be a moment where you feel alone.

If interested you can email me tamirra.holland@gmail.com and everything is strictly business and between us.

The way everyone was excited for 2020, everyone thought that it was their year and they thought they were ready to make their dreams come true.

Then all of a sudden, we were met with bullcrap on top of bullcrap and everyone got discouraged.

I wonder if the dream that you had placed on your heart in the beginning of the year was strong enough to counteract everything that happened.

Were you able to set things up or even live life to the fullest?
Did you pick up hobbies in the midst of everything being shutdown?
Did you realize this was the time to heal things that came to the surface to be dealt with?

I guess what I am really asking is if everything was in the reverse and what your idea of blessings were started to pour down.

Would you be ready to receive them? Or would you have missed them because of “circumstances”?

As I lay here with my eyes closed I could picture your face. All the while I’m hearing a conversation that I’ve had about you where I stated you were God to me.

You’re a goddess in your own right, matter of fact you embody the very nature of the conversation if God was a woman.

If God was a woman she would be just like you. The way you look into my eyes and past my faults and pull up my deepest darkest fears. You don’t do it to judge, no, you do it to help heal me. You nurture every flaw that I tried to hide and you tell me that I’m beautiful.

You look me so deep into my eyes that you pull every emotion out of me, but those damn tears are what you get the most. You feel my emotions in order to help me understand myself.

Your nature is so calm and soothing, but oh so protective. You possess the strength of all the women that came before you. You are a light and im like a moth to your flame.

God, just rip me open already. I feel my hearts core expanding at this very moment.

I feel myself becoming bigger than my body can hold. God, just let me expand already.

God, just tell me what to do and work through me i promise that I’ll do it. Just allow me to expand.

Allow me to rip through this shell thats too small for my being. Let my soul shine brighter than what my body can hold.

Let me be the light that you so desperately need me to be.

God, allow me to expand in order to do the work.

God, allow me to expand bc staying in this space hurts.

God, you are making my heart bigger than my body can hold. Just please give me some more space.

I’ll breathe it out as my heart grows, I’ll breathe it out as my light expands, I’ll breathe it out until that beam of light shoots out of me and fully connects with you.

God? this is what it feels like to truly carry you in my heart? Lord, you are preparing a sacred place. Cleaning the debris that i must’ve missed.

I welcome you into my space and into my heart. I’ll carry you wherever I go as you have carried me even before I knew you.

My breathing slows as the beam of light comes back into me fully connected. The expansion is not fully complete, but you’ve placed yourself into my heart.

I’ve searched for you and I have found you. I’ve searched for me and I have found me.

I stand in my power and in my truth because we have already proved that nothing is impossible.

In order to access 5D love you have to let go of 3D.

5D is the type of love that finds a balance in the darkest moments. 5D is the type of love that will make you rip yourself from the inside out in order to allow it to flow freely.

5D is the type of love that everyone hasn’t been privy to bc they can’t let go of the idea of what love is and what they’ve been taught. They can’t let go of the false feeling of what they think love feels like.

What would love look like to you if you ripped your heart open and lived in it’s core? How much would you settle for if you truly felt 5D love flowing from your heart.

The sweet taste of understanding through any and every moment. The sweet taste of looking at someone knowing they were made for you and only you.

5D is the type of love that i strive for and to keep. I realized that I was torn between two worlds and I only belong in one. The one I belong in is far from the ego disguised as the heart.

My abundance is joy wrapped in happiness. They are the moments created by staying in the present. My abundance is love wrapped around me. The love that I have for myself and for others, but its also the love that my Angels give to me. My abundance is lessons wrapped in pain, realizing without the pain there is no happiness therefore no abundance. My abundance is not something that is monetary, but its something that I worked damn hard for. The smile on my face, know that I worked for it. The words that come out of my mouth, know that I worked for it. The gratitude that I feel everyday, know that I worked for it all, so when you see the tangible blessings start rolling in please believe me when I say I deserve it all.

I felt the need to write on sexual trauma, I feel it in my spirit. I can feel her blaming herself for not being strong enough to fight him off. I can feel her energy of regret for not telling her father. I can feel her energy of trying to figure out where she went wrong in the way she loves herself. I can feel her get mad at herself for allowing him to have the power over her after so many years. I can feel her agonizing screams on the inside, as her tears fall silently down her face. I just want to grab her and pull that energy out of her heart. I want to tell her she doesn’t have to hold it anymore. It happened and im sorry, but she doesn’t have to feel guilty. I need to tell her how beautiful she is, I need to look her in the eyes and take her pain away. I need to take her pain and allow my light to set her free. As much as I want to set her free only she could do it for herself, only she could find her light and her beauty, only she could take her power back. I can only send her light, love and positivity while she goes to the darkest places of her mind. So, I ask you to pray for her because sadly, we all know a HER.

These last two years I have been working on myself. Going through each obstacle to get back to my true self. Going through and letting go of people, places and things.

We’re souls living a human experience. My God did I have an experience. I came here to learn that through every trial and tribulation, through every traumatic experience, and through the self-hate; I realized that I was more than enough.

For so long I convinced myself that I wasn’t for my own reasons and my own demons. The funny thing about that is God has always put people in my life that has loved me unconditionally, but I was never able to see it because I didn’t love myself unconditionally.

I have been shown the most love from the people I’ve hurt the most. You know what that taught me? It taught me forgiveness.

It taught me how to forgive people because they weren’t operating from a space of love within themselves.

How could I judge when I’ve been there before?

I have lied to those who have been nothing but honest with me. I guess out of the fear of rejection or maybe this weird thing called taking accountability. I have learned the power of taking accountability, all it does is propel you forward.

Yesterday, I decided to speak my truth in the most vulnerable way possible and although it wasn’t the answer I was looking for, there was a sense of empowerment. I spoke from my heart and thats all I could do. I also feel as if I have been letting the world see me for who I truly am for the last few months.

I have ripped the armor off of my heart and let my light shine bright. Telling you this is who I am take it or leave it, but you leaving it has nothing to do with how I feel about myself.

Last night I received a message saying, my karmic account is now full! It didn’t hit me until this morning.

I had an epiphany while in the shower drowning myself lol. I realized I worked through everything that kept me in the mindset of lack and its time to fully step into my power and show the world who I really am!

Website, Podcast, and Book coming soon!!

Fear in my mind equates to death and destruction.
Fear is the only thing that holds us back from living the life that we want and with the people we want it with.

Fear has a funny way of getting in the way of dreams and aspirations.
It builds a wall of lies blocking us from what is on the other side.

They say, the grass isn’t always greener on the other side. I’m learning if you stay somewhere too long it kills what you have planted.

The point of life is to plant seeds wherever you go. The right seeds will grow with or without your attention. The point is to never stay anywhere too long.

Fear will have you unhappy for the rest of your life. Dying a death after living a life that seemed not worth living. Trying to make the best out of every situation; when you could’ve been the best in every situation.

I lay down crippled by fear because it is embedded deeper than I would like to admit.

Crippled by the art of letting go. Convincing myself if I just hold on a little tighter that it will work out and it will be for me. Crippled by the idea of how others would react to my happiness I decide to stay in the shadows of my mind.

Crippled by the fear that is telling me that I can’t do something or I’m not deserving. Crippled by the fear that says, people can’t see past your lack, so in reality you’ll never be enough.

Isn’t that funny? No matter how much healing that takes place its fear that can make everything “seem” like its crumbling down.

Relax, fear is just the magnifying glass on the things that need to be worked on and worked through. We can never get over things, but we have the capability to get through them.

When we can’t move on from the things that hold us back is when the tears start to form.

When you ignore the tears is when the depression kicks in.

If you’re lucky you’ll feel the desperation to expand and when that happens nothing can get in your way.

If you choose not to expand, your way of life will always seem meek and suffocating.

My need to expand will stop at no cost.

Where is your need?