Promise To Myself

Im sorry that you had to die; I promise I won’t forget what you’ve done for me.

I promise that your death won’t go in vain. I promise to live a life that you tried to live but couldn’t.

I will forever remember how much you suffocated so that I won’t make the same mistakes.

I will live by your example and make it better than you could have ever dreamed.

I will set the boundaries that you never could. I will honor myself beyond the stars.
I promise I won’t settle for less than I deserve.
I promise that I won’t help people beyond my ability.
I promise you I will never bleed myself to death again.

You gave your last breath yesterday for me to live. You took me to the place where people go to die and Lord, did I feel it.

But you gave your life so that I could breathe easy. You remind me never to allow anyone to suffocate me again.

For that, your death won’t go in vain.

Inconvenient

People walk all over others as if they are more important than you are.

Isn’t that crazy to think that your life is more important than the person you’re inconveniencing.

How does it feel to be an inconvenience to others? I guess you don’t care because you see it as an I need to live too.

Your life and needs have nothing to do with me when it steps all over; excuse me when it comes close to my boundaries. Let’s face it; you can’t even penetrate the first wall of defense.

I would hope one day people wouldn’t take advantage of others.

On the other hand, I hope that one day when you step the wrong way, everything snaps, and at that moment, you realize you were never as important as the person you so kindly inconvenienced.

Whichever way the lesson finds you, I’m sure it was deserving. Who am I to say anything? But I do hope. However, it finds you; it teaches you how to treat people that never tell you no.

Your Eyes

Your heart has a magnetic field of 3Ft that means it expands 3Ft around your entire body.

When you come in contact with someone’s magnetic field, it’ll either attract or repel.

When you are in an attraction, it usually awakens a small or large piece of you depending upon the attraction.

If I can’t stand inside of your magnetic field, how else will I feel you? How else will I get to know who you are in a short amount of time?

Your eyes are the window to the soul.

But we’ve been taught how to read facial expressions and listen for tone of voice.

Maybe we’re being forced to meet others by their soul and not what we see on the surface.

I can’t feel you, but I could see you.

Maybe it’s time for us to really start seeing each other and stop being afraid of people seeing us too.

Management

You remember in the movie Monsters Inc. They fed off of the fear of the children to keep the city going.

Then one “monster” realized that happiness and laughter were more powerful energy sources than fear and anger.

Management wasn’t trying to change, and they were doing some wicked things to keep things the same.

What I’m saying is to find ways to have genuine happiness and laughter in your life and find ways to spread it.

The way that you’re allowing “management” to keep you angry or in fear is scary because that means they control you.

Everything doesn’t need a reaction and most importantly.

NOTHING IS WHAT IT SEEMS.

Silence

Silence makes the heart grow fonder. It moves loudly through your spirit and gives you time and space to think. It brings you a sense of peace and understanding.

Silence is where you feel the most love because cruel words are not bombarding you.

I used to be afraid of silence. Now I live for it because I know in silence is where we grow the most.

Dishonor

Actions speak louder than words.

You can’t disprove a person’s beliefs by using words.

If you want someone to hear you and agree with you, your actions have to align with what you’re saying.

People don’t want you to believe in the Bible or God, but they aren’t giving you anything better.

If someone’s life is going well according to their beliefs, what would make them want to listen to you?

The game is being played backward. Your ego is talking to people, but speaking from your ego separates yourself from your spirit.

And by doing that, you’re already dishonoring the god that lives inside of you.

Free Spirit

When I look in the mirror, I see a free spirit that goes to the beat of her own drum.

She has freedom in living in her truths and being free and open to what she wants in life.

But she holds something close to her heart. The ones who know, know, and the ones who don’t, don’t.

She holds it so close to her heart that she blocks all that she wants when it comes to love.

It’s honestly the one thing that might keep me from looking in the mirror too long.

When I look too long, I lose my sense of freedom. I ask what will people think? What will God think?

But God already told me the person who leads you back to Him is the one He sent for you.

Wherever love lives is where God lives too!

I stay in the mirror a little bit longer and ask myself all of the questions that I need to answer, and all of it boils down to what would make you happy?

My happiness comes when my spirit is free.

Ripple Through My Body

There is something in my heart that doesn’t belong to me. It ripples throughout my entire system. The feeling of sadness, the sense of defeat. The tears that want to pour from my eyes. I feel so much as if the pain were mine.

Who has tapped in because they know I could speak the words they could not? Who is suffocating in their sadness? Who is drowning in their pain?

What have you been avoiding? You know your answers; I do not. I can’t tell you anything except I hear you, and I could feel you. You’ve felt alone for so long. You didn’t think anyone would ever hear your silent screams.

They aren’t as silent as you think. They ripple through my body, so I know they’re ready to burst through yours.

Let out that one good scream.
Let out that one good cry.

I hear your silent screams as you go about your day. You deserve an academy award with that smile you keep on your face.

Let out that pain you’ve held onto. Breathe through the chaos that you feel trapped under.

For so long, you’ve felt alone, but today I’m telling you I hear your silent screams.

My Letter To God

God, please, before moving forward, please reveal yourself to me allow me to understand what it is I am supposed to know.

Please show me everything clearly, and if I am supposed to explain it to others, please help me with the words.

I know for a fact that I am being shown something. Please show me what it is.

1:01 am (fundamentals) I was woken up and remembered a Bible plan I saw; I went back to it and read through the seven days, and it answered every question I had ever asked.

As far as the words I am supposed to share with you, this is it.

God can tell you better than I ever could.

Who Is God?

http://bible.com/r/4Wc

Share Your Gifts

Speaking and living from your heart is a weird-ass gift.

You feel all of these things, and you have to share them with whoever is listening.

Cricket, crickets, crickets.

You start to wonder where you went wrong in what you said. You sit there looking around like, hey, I just said this doesn’t this mean something?

As you sit in quiet, remember you’re being used, and it’s not your business how your gifts are being received. If you’re supposed to share it, then share it. You know exactly what I am talking about.

That was my lesson today from the moment I woke up to this moment now.
It is not my business to know what God is using me for, and it’s not for likes or feedback.

If I wrote a poem and shared it, then it did what it was supposed to do.

My sister asked who I was, and I told her.

I am not only a child of God, but I am ME

That means I am whoever you need me to be because God speaks through me.

Who am I when I sit alone?

Someone who connects to God in all of the things that make me happy.

Who am I in a partnership?

Someone who loves unconditionally and builds the person through love and understanding, so that when they go out into the world, whoever they come to across meets God through them.