I am terrified of you, and yet I can’t get enough. I follow my heart, and it leads back to you. At the same time, my mind continues to play tricks on me.

But how could I listen to those stories that I make up in my mind when everything says green.

Greenlight. She reflects the darkness that lives inside of you.
Greenlight. Once you find your light, you shine a light on her darkness and help her heal.
Greenlight. You both somehow feel unworthy of each other.
Greenlight. You feel unworthy of her because you feel like you can’t measure up in her material world.
Greenlight. She feels unworthy because she realizes you want nothing from her except her love.
Greenlight. You both are having a hard time trusting the other.
Greenlight. You both proved you guys were in the long run.
Greenlight. Your souls transformed the minute you guys met.
Greenlight. Dont be afraid.
Greenlight. She only speaks what you feel in your heart.
Greenlight. It’s time to overcome it.
Greenlight. Love is in the air.

Open your heart

Open your heart. It’s been closed too long, allow the Spirit of love to move through. Get back to the space of happiness and creativity.

Open your heart to the unknown. Smile. Be free. Be love. Be fearless. Be you.

Open your heart.

Be free. Get what you deserve, and remember people and God are not for sale.

Trust the process

Open your heart.

Trauma Response Cancelled

The child that never wanted to rock the boat. The one that always wanted smooth sailing, even if it came at a price.

The price was more than she could afford. It was constant apologizing even when she did nothing wrong. It was fading into the background, hoping that her quietness was deemed as obedient.

The price was lying on the cold, wet ground allowing people to walk all over her so they wouldn’t get their feet wet. She thought she could handle it better than they could, so she just allowed herself to sink into the ground.

She became a doormat; she became the person people could blame for their troubles even though she sat prim and proper.

She sat quietly as people abused her kindness. She made excuses and said, well, it’s okay. Everyone has their days.

But she thought, when will her day come? Sadly for her, the day never came at that point in her life.

Until the woman emerged from the sunken ground.

I had to learn how to stop apologizing when I wasn’t in the wrong.

I had to stop allowing people to walk all over me.

I set healthy boundaries, and to those affected by it the most gives me immense grief, but you know what, this woman doesn’t care.

My soul becomes fragmented when I put others over myself.

The love I have for others will never change, but what does change is the love that I have for myself.

And the love for you could never surpass the love I have for myself, not anymore.

The child feels guilty, but the woman says, come correct or not at all.

The child says, love me, I’ll be good, I promise. The woman says, love me in my strength and weakness or don’t love me.

The child says I don’t care how you talk to me; the woman says, please think before you speak and give me the most authentic version of yourself because anything less won’t be tolerated.

See, everyone has a breaking point, and I’ve finally reached mine.

Love With No Conditions

We were taught that people love things more than the person in front of them.

So, in our minds, we believe that we have to obtain material things to be loved.

The more you have, the more people will love you.

The sad truth is if we love only people who have things, we miss out on unconditional love.

You know, the love that we could all feel if we learned to put things down.

I know it’s a hard thing to believe. Could you be happy without things? How could this be?

Because happiness could never come from things or what people can do for you.

Love could never be felt through things of the material world.

Things lose value.

The new car off the lot lost value the minute it left the dealership.

Things only have as much value as we believe they do.

Someone from the South will look at someone from the North and say you’re bugging. I’m not paying that much for a house when I could have much more for less.

When we put a value on love, we lose.

You lose yourself because you now put a price on yourself when in actuality, you’re priceless.

You lose the person that could have shown you the true meaning of love and happiness because you felt their love wasn’t worth much without the car and house.

Unconditional love opens us up to worlds beyond the one you could see.

Unconditional love opens us to ourselves.

But I guess we’ve run so far from ourselves that things are good enough to fill the voids.

Love is coming to sweep through the nations, and every dark place will be lit no stone unturned.

Remember, things are fleeting if met with any choice. Always choose love.

Love with no conditions.

Promise To Myself

Im sorry that you had to die; I promise I won’t forget what you’ve done for me.

I promise that your death won’t go in vain. I promise to live a life that you tried to live but couldn’t.

I will forever remember how much you suffocated so that I won’t make the same mistakes.

I will live by your example and make it better than you could have ever dreamed.

I will set the boundaries that you never could. I will honor myself beyond the stars.
I promise I won’t settle for less than I deserve.
I promise that I won’t help people beyond my ability.
I promise you I will never bleed myself to death again.

You gave your last breath yesterday for me to live. You took me to the place where people go to die and Lord, did I feel it.

But you gave your life so that I could breathe easy. You remind me never to allow anyone to suffocate me again.

For that, your death won’t go in vain.

My Letter To God

God, please, before moving forward, please reveal yourself to me allow me to understand what it is I am supposed to know.

Please show me everything clearly, and if I am supposed to explain it to others, please help me with the words.

I know for a fact that I am being shown something. Please show me what it is.

1:01 am (fundamentals) I was woken up and remembered a Bible plan I saw; I went back to it and read through the seven days, and it answered every question I had ever asked.

As far as the words I am supposed to share with you, this is it.

God can tell you better than I ever could.

Who Is God?

Circles And Squares

I know I’ve hurt people on my journey. Not intentionally, just like no one hurt me on purpose.

Sometimes people have to live their life, and you don’t fit and vice versa.

It’s okay not to fit. That means either you need work or they need work. Either way, it makes room for growth.

Growth is the name of the game. If we say we want the same thing and we can’t obtain them together, which means there is a blockage and isn’t supposed to be.

We try to put squares in circles and get frustrated when they don’t fit.

Why would a circle want something so rigid and inflexible inside of it?
Squares don’t allow for movement. It’s this way or no way. And it’s usually their way.

That’s a terrible way to live, and I’ll tell you why. Circles have opportunities to expand. Circles have the chance to be filled with love, full of family, and friends. Circles could be filled with happiness.

I’ve never heard the phrase square of love or square of hope.

Circles have no end.

When you try to put a square in a circle, you block the flow that the circle has to offer.

You block love and any possibilities of any real connection.

Ha! Square, block, get it?
I realized I was the circle and couldn’t allow the square to block me any further.

Hey, all my circles out there, stop letting these squares block your flow.

We’re all circles, but we allow people and circumstances to be our squares.

Remember, it’s always a circle of hope, a circle of love; your circle continues. It never stops, even when there is a blockage.

Love and be the circle you were meant to be!

Someone Needed This

I am going to talk to you for a moment.

Things are never what they seem, and everything happens for a reason.

We know the reason is healing; we get caught up in the outside world that we forget about what our hearts want, and we forget that our hearts know how to get there.

My heart pours out when I have space to think.
My heart pours out when there are no distractions.

See, I am at this moment of separation from others, and when that happens, I sometimes feel alone.

Sometimes, your journey calls for solitude. How can you hear yourself if you can’t sit alone?

Some days I learn nothing about myself. Other days I am bombarded with information that I need to process.

How can I process without the ability to do it alone?

You know, I’m starting to think a lot of people are processing right now. I’m beginning to think something is happening that is benefitting everyone right now.

You know, I think this is the beginning of a beautiful winning season for most.

My heart tells me that she always wins, and she always gets what she wants. She also told me it takes patience and preparation.

I think a lot of your hearts out there are saying the same thing.

They are telling you to hold on just a little while longer everything that you want is coming quicker than you could ever imagine.

Your hearts are screaming; I promise it was all worth it.

Even when life looks like it’s being flipped upside down, it might; I’m lying. It’s not might your life is flipping right side up.

Your blessings are coming. You have to hold steady.

Hey, think about it like this, you’ve waited all of this time to win. What’s a little bit more time?

Trust me; I get it! Like where are the blessings?

But the blessing is in knowing that it’s coming because you’ve done the work. You’ve done everything that was asked of you.

My blessings are here because I’ve learned that time and space are an illusion.

The music that I hear puts me in a good mood, and it speaks love to my ears.

The random sweet smell that passes under my nose instantly makes me smile.

The random thought that makes me bust out laughing like a crazy person.

My ability to write is a blessing in itself because my heart can talk to you no matter how close or far. Even when you don’t speak back, I know my words reached someone.

Your blessings are already here because you keep getting chances to get it right.

Not only that, the way your blessings are coming in allows you the opportunity to be the blueprint for what it means to live your most authentic life and be rewarded for leading the way.

End Of The Rainbow

What would you do with the gold at the end of the rainbow?

Is there any gold at all?
What if the point was to enjoy the journey?

Enjoy the colors and the magic of it all.

What would you do with the gold at the end of the rainbow?

Would you hold it close and cherish it forever?
Would you share it amongst those in need?

What would you do with the gold at the end of the rainbow?

What if there was no gold and it was only you that stood there.

Would it still mean the same as the gold you thought you were in search of?