I hate feeling vulnerable there. I said it. That statement may seem weird because I am usually open and honest about how I think, but those are the parts of me I want you to see.

Vulnerability makes me uncomfortable, and what I am about to tell you makes it more painful, but that’s how I know it has to happen.

My greatest fear.

My greatest fear is not a failure; how can it be when failure isn’t an option? Do you know what option is? My fear of being great. The fear of knowing that I could conquer the world, the fear of knowing I could be the light someone needs, the fear of knowing I could make a difference, the fear of knowing that I could be the change. That’s scary for someone who is used to living in the shadows.

Now let me tell you something else. I can’t fail if I wake up every day and do the things that are “expected” of me. There is no failing in that respect. I can lay my head on the pillow and get a great night’s sleep.

The problem comes when I am only doing what is “expected.” Not pushing myself past my limitations, not touching a piece of my greatness, not building the structure where I already have a strong foundation. That’s what keeps me up at night.

For me to say I don’t trust my abilities is the equivalence of saying I don’t trust God, for I am only an extension of such great power.

How can I be afraid when I know everything is on the other side of the door? That’s it; everything is on the other side of the door. There will be no time to second guess; there will be no time to think I can skate by in life.

Stepping into my power is stepping into my purpose. I just laughed to myself because what’s the sense of knowing you could conquer the world and won’t. What’s the importance of knowing you could be light but keep yourself dim. What’s the purpose of knowing you could be the change but won’t.

Things get uncomfortable when it’s time to move.

What’s your greatest fear?

I had a vision the other night.

I saw myself burying gold bars. A few people came around me and asked what I was doing.
I said, im burying the gold. They said it’s daytime; people can see you.

I said they’re supposed to see me. The gold isn’t for me to keep, but they will have to dig for it themselves.

What is your vision for your life?
What dreams do you see?
What is your passion?
What is hiding under your pain?

What does your life look like without it being contingent on anything outside of you?
If money wasn’t an issue?
If what your family and friends thought weren’t an issue?
What would you consider the best version of yourself?
Are you there?

There is an energy that needs to be tapped into. I see and feel it pulling on some; you just have to answer the call.

The truth is I am a visionary. I see things beyond reality. My mind pieces together things that aren’t naturally connecting. My inner hearing is louder than the words anyone outside of me can speak. I was asked how I could tell the difference between thoughts and messages. I said, my thoughts bring chaos and confusion. The messages bring clarity and peace.

It is the Yin to the Yang. It is allowing the mother to live. Without the vision, there is no life. Without dreams, there is no movement. The mother gives birth to all ideas. It is her that manifest things into reality. It is her guidance that whispers in your ear. It is her guidance that keeps you safe.

To honor thy Father, you have to honor thy Mother.

Before I came here to tell you this, I realized I would shy away from my gifts because I thought it would make me look crazy.

How can I care what people think when honoring the Divine Feminine(yin) has afforded me freedom?

Today I honor her; today, I follow with no fear. Today i honor myself bc I am the Divine Feminine.

Today there is a full awakening!

I can only tell you what I saw.

The moonlight is as bright as it could be. I was dancing with the ones who came before me. Each one is reminding me that death is not real because they all live inside of me. I carry them as if they were my children. They guide me as elders ought to. They remind me of my power. They remind me to pick my chin up. They remind me that I am royalty. They remind me that I am magic.

They rejoice because I can feel them. My ancestors sing because I am the one who they have been waiting for. The one who would save herself to save them too.

As we dance around the fire, I see you lurking in the shadows. That’s what we’ve become accustomed to; one is in the shadows while the other gets the light.
This isn’t just for me; no, the heat from the flame pulls you in closer and closer. It whispers your name until you have no choice but to come forth.

Come forth, come forth, you know you want to come forth. The whispers get louder. Come forth, come forth, you know it’s time to come forth. The sound of the music in your heart is getting louder; it draws you to the flame.

Rejoice because she’s almost to the light. You look back, but all you see is darkness. Rejoice, rejoice. You’re almost there.

I dance in the freedom of the flame, the flickering of the embers—the embers where we both came.

You stop and stare as if you can’t see who’s there for you. Then you remember the strength of the women who came before you. You remember they went to the beat of their drum. You remember they couldn’t be stopped. You remember even when you thought they were weak, they showed you strength, not even men possess.

They whisper to you to come. It’s safe. They say dance in the freedom of the flame. Dance until you set yourself free. Hear the beat of your drum and march.

They start real low.

It’s time; it’s time (louder) its time; it’s time((louder)) IT’S time; IT’S time (((louder))) IT’S TIME; IT’S TIME ((((louder)))) TO COME ALIVE, COME ALIVE, COME ALIVE.

AND LIVE!!

…and then she transformed and spread her wings!

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As I connect to this rose in my mind’s eye, I can dissect it from the outside to inside out.

The thorns that protect the smoothness of the stem. Only a few brave souls attempt to pick it—the smoothness from the stem connecting to the delicate petals. Did you think it could get any more beautiful than that? Look closely; you could see the veins that run through the petal, the vibrancy of the colors that make people stop and stare. The deeper you go inside of this rose, you’ll notice layers upon layers, and then there is life. You’ll realize that the thorns were protecting the life inside of this rose, the life waiting for its turn to blossom.

As I step out of the rose, I step outside of myself. I see the beauty of every piece that makes one—layers upon layers that breed new life.

If I think I am right based on what I believe. In my reality, that makes me right.

If you have a belief about something even if it opposes me, that would still make you right because that’s what you believe.

But if we’re both right, then who is wrong?

It’s 6:19 am. I’ve been awake since 4:44 am. The last thought before moving was to answer the call.

I asked for my purpose years ago, and God and the universe have done everything to get me here.

My purpose is to dismantle people and religious beliefs because, at the bottom of the dismantling, there is only LOVE. And guess what? God is LOVE, and the highest vibration of the universe is LOVE.

It sounds crazy, I know! Tell me about it, lol; in reality, the minute the words that once destroyed me stopped holding power over me is the moment that I didn’t care what anyone thought about me.

Every bit of information that I picked up along the way that connects each religious book to the other was because I’m great at big picture ideas and connecting the dots to what others might not see.

So, standing in my power, I’m telling you what my purpose is without the fear of judgment because I’ve answered my call, and I have conquered more giant demons than the demon of judgment lol.

I am here to dismantle people and their religious beliefs because, in doing so, it brings people and things back to the natural order of things, which is LOVE. UNCONDITIONAL LOVE.

Luckily for me, I’ve already seen me work my magic.

My message to you is when you get that nagging feeling that won’t go away, and it keeps you up at night, it keeps your mind racing during the day. That’s just your calling waiting to be answered, so answer it. You’ll never know peace until you do, and trust me, there is peace on this side. No matter what is going on around me, I have ultimate peace.

I have died many times in two years. I die a little each day. I gather new information that cancels out something I learned the day prior. I heal at an accelerated rate because I refuse to feel stuck. I have learned to let go where I need to let go.

Letting go sometimes feels like abandonment, depending on your trauma. I have felt guilt plenty of times for letting go.

Letting go is the healthiest thing you could do for yourself or someone else.

Working through my abandonment issues and examing the people that I felt left me, I noticed a pattern of not having peace and being unhealthy within themselves.

When I step back from people, it’s because I don’t have peace, and I’m unhealthy around people.

What we have to start realizing is that as much as we blame ourselves for absence, it’s never us, unless you’re the unhealthy person and someone decided to love themselves more.

As I write this, I’m noticing LOVE through the absence. I see the LOVE someone has, for you won’t allow their demons to destroy you. You LOVE someone enough not to let your monsters destroy them. The LOVE for self to walk away from unhealthy is enough to keep you going.

Ha! Look at all of that LOVE that we’re missing because of all we see its absence.

ABSENCE IS LOVE!

I keep saying I’ll step into my power, and I’ll expose my soul when I go live. I’m already exposed. I live in my truth every day. I walk in my light. I choose to lead with my soul. I inspire just by being me and speaking with love. That is powerful in itself being an inspiration bc I choose to be myself. Who knew? Lol

The website is just the icing on the cake. There is no when something happens. There is only NOW. I’m laying down still being powerful bc I understand my power.