Someone Needed This

I am going to talk to you for a moment.

Things are never what they seem, and everything happens for a reason.

We know the reason is healing; we get caught up in the outside world that we forget about what our hearts want, and we forget that our hearts know how to get there.

My heart pours out when I have space to think.
My heart pours out when there are no distractions.

See, I am at this moment of separation from others, and when that happens, I sometimes feel alone.

Sometimes, your journey calls for solitude. How can you hear yourself if you can’t sit alone?

Some days I learn nothing about myself. Other days I am bombarded with information that I need to process.

How can I process without the ability to do it alone?

You know, I’m starting to think a lot of people are processing right now. I’m beginning to think something is happening that is benefitting everyone right now.

You know, I think this is the beginning of a beautiful winning season for most.

My heart tells me that she always wins, and she always gets what she wants. She also told me it takes patience and preparation.

I think a lot of your hearts out there are saying the same thing.

They are telling you to hold on just a little while longer everything that you want is coming quicker than you could ever imagine.

Your hearts are screaming; I promise it was all worth it.

Even when life looks like it’s being flipped upside down, it might; I’m lying. It’s not might your life is flipping right side up.

Your blessings are coming. You have to hold steady.

Hey, think about it like this, you’ve waited all of this time to win. What’s a little bit more time?

Trust me; I get it! Like where are the blessings?

But the blessing is in knowing that it’s coming because you’ve done the work. You’ve done everything that was asked of you.

My blessings are here because I’ve learned that time and space are an illusion.

The music that I hear puts me in a good mood, and it speaks love to my ears.

The random sweet smell that passes under my nose instantly makes me smile.

The random thought that makes me bust out laughing like a crazy person.

My ability to write is a blessing in itself because my heart can talk to you no matter how close or far. Even when you don’t speak back, I know my words reached someone.

Your blessings are already here because you keep getting chances to get it right.

Not only that, the way your blessings are coming in allows you the opportunity to be the blueprint for what it means to live your most authentic life and be rewarded for leading the way.

End Of The Rainbow

What would you do with the gold at the end of the rainbow?

Is there any gold at all?
What if the point was to enjoy the journey?

Enjoy the colors and the magic of it all.

What would you do with the gold at the end of the rainbow?

Would you hold it close and cherish it forever?
Would you share it amongst those in need?

What would you do with the gold at the end of the rainbow?

What if there was no gold and it was only you that stood there.

Would it still mean the same as the gold you thought you were in search of?

The Age Of The Feminine(part 1)

We all need to be grounded in this earth before our souls could take off.

I have walked this earth for 32 years without knowing my roots and where I came from.

A lost child, I was told that I couldn’t be entirely black because I didn’t fit the description, whatever that meant.

How far back could I take you? I couldn’t take you anywhere until now.

My Divine Mother Oshun from her, I emerge as she lives in me. The mother of all mothers that have come before me.

My Divine Feminine Archetype. The one who gives me the power of love and speaks to me through the water. The one who gives life and takes it away.

Oshun is the one that you need more than she will ever need you, and she knows it.

When she pulls back her love, the whole world feels it.

She is the mother of the rivers that have dried up due to the disrespect. She is the mother of the bees that have been dying out.

Without the love of Oshun, the world dies.

We are not here to worship our ancestors, but we must show gratitude. We must ground ourselves where our roots run deep.

They live in us as they were our children.

She followed her children when they were taken from her land and brought to the states. She spoke to them through the troubled water and showed them the way to freedom.

She deserves recognition because she is the strength that keeps me going. She tells me there is nothing that I can’t accomplish.

She is the last piece of my soul. Without her, there is no movement. She taught me to love myself first, and everything else will follow.

My Divine Mother Oshun

The Age Of The Feminine(part 2)

Who is your Divine Mother (Feminine)?
Who resides in your soul and guides you?

The only way for the Divine Masculine to emerge is if the Divine Feminine gives birth.

What are you giving birth to?
What are you creating for yourself and the world?

How much do you know you belong?
How much do you know you are loved, and everything will work out for you?
How much can you say you love yourself?
Without ego speaking for you
How much can you give?

I ask this because this is what your Divine Feminine is asking. We’re speaking energy. I am talking to men and women. We’re in yin/yang energy

Oshun might not be your mother, but you started from somewhere.

It’s time for the Divine Feminine to shine.
It’s time to let her out. Without her, the world dies.

The world has been dying. The masculines have said we can do this without her, not understanding that she is life because she is love—her ability to love breeds new life.

We need her love to save the world. We need her wisdom and guidance to push us forward.

We have been in the dark without her.

The World Is Waiting

People are like mosaics. We’re broken deliberately to create a beautiful picture.

Through every religion and spiritual practice, it teaches us that we’re the co-creators of our life.

God is waiting for us to tell him what we want to create to supply us with our needs.

We’re waiting for the light of the world to show up in our darkest moments.

Not realizing we’re the light the world is waiting for.

2020 broke us down
2021 is your responsibility to build yourself back up.

I look forward to seeing all of the beautiful masterpieces.

Happy New Year!

Wrong, Big Fat, Wrong!

I came from a long line of women who settled for less, and if they didn’t settle, they were content with being alone.

The only thing about that is they were never happy. The lack of love made them believe they weren’t worthy of it.

Here I am, a 33-year-old woman having to figure out what love is and if I am worthy of having it. I have to figure out if I put myself in a box of beliefs that I dont even believe in.

Well, come to find out, I put myself in a box. I agreed to everything that didn’t sit well in my soul. I talked myself out of getting the love that I deserved. I said, ah, this is okay; I could handle this something is better than nothing.

WRONG, BIG FAT, WRONG!!! I’d rather have nothing than to sit in something that doesn’t sit well with my soul. My spirit is too big to be trapped in a box. At the end of my story, I win. Hell, it’s my story. How don’t I win?

I won’t hold space for what could be when I am more than deserving of what my heart desires right at this very moment.

2020, I followed every aspect of my heart.
2021, I build the life that I want and deserve.

Even when I had nothing in the eyes of some, all I asked for was love.

Sometimes you’re asking the wrong person, and you have to realize when you love yourself entirely, the love that you’re asking for from someone else doesn’t even matter.

Tonight, it doesn’t matter. Tonight I love myself enough to be truthful. The truth is I deserve to be loved the way my heart desires, and at this very moment, despite what it seems like I don’t have physically, I am more than enough.

Funny story, I always win.

Why should anyone be so lucky to benefit from me when I finally fit into their idea of what someone should be.

People say, oh man, if you had this, you would be perfect, if you did this, omg! You would be ideal.

Ummm, I’m perfect already because I broke down the barriers of my heart for the world to see. Stuff can always be replaced. The love that I have to offer can not. The love that I offer transforms.

Ah, yes! People are afraid of transformations. I get it. Fear. That’s okay, I understand,  but I also understand that I live to be different and a better version of myself every day.

And for that, I choose me.

My Heart and Soul

Sometimes I forget you guys don’t live in my mind, and sometimes I jump ahead of myself.

Since the beginning of my self-love journey, I have been the most honest I have ever been in my entire life. I share details that could be off-putting to some and inspiring to others. We all come here to write and share with whoever will listen.

I am at the phase in my life where I want to be a living testimony of what being your authentic self looks like. I want to show up with no mask so others can always see something in me that they either see in themselves or wish to see. When that happens is when change begins to take shape.

I strive to ignite that flame that sets your heart free from bondage. I don’t know your story, but I know mine, and I’m not afraid to share it even when others look at me like I’m crazy.

I put my heart and soul into my ebook Favor over Fear: a guide to self-love because I believe in what I do and how I do it. I believe in you and your ability to find your true self.

People think that I am not afraid, but the truth is I am terrified, but things need to get done, and I choose to get them done.

There is an energy that needs to be released, but we’re all sitting on it because we’re afraid of what-ifs.

How about this, what if everything we want comes to fruition? What if we crack the code to life? What if we all could connect in such a way to know that we’re never alone, even in our darkest moments.

We all share a piece of ourselves anytime we share a post.

My words are my heart and soul. My life is yours to witness. Hopefully, the witness to my healing provides you with the safety of knowing it’s ok to heal every part of you, even when it might seem like it opposes someone else.

I share my heart and soul with you on every platform I have associated with my name.

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Favor over Fear. chapter 2

Before I ask you if you could relate, I want to explain what I meant.

I did everything that I was supposed to do except take care of myself. I went to work and came home and took care of my family. I gave so much of myself even when I knew I was being depleted. Why wouldn’t I? Isn’t that what we’re supposed to do? We’re supposed to be the backbone for someone else; we’re supposed to sacrifice for other people. Who cares how you feel as long as the person on the receiving end is happy.

When does your happiness begin to matter? When do you begin to count?

My essence is my inner happiness and peace, and when I tell you, I wished for death because it had to be better than my experience. I cried out so many times just for it to be over.

I never got my wish, but I got something better I found the ability to find my happiness even if that meant letting go of things and people that I thought would last forever.

I’ll ask again how many of you could relate? How many of you want more? How many of you need more but don’t know how to get there?

Allow me to show you my journey and how I found my happiness and learned how to conquer my fears.

You can find it here in my free ebook.

Favor over Fear: a guide to self-love

https://hustling-maker-5858.ck.page/191fc69eb1

The Outer Limits

The outer limits of my mind, where the chaos lives.The place where my greatest ideas are muddled by fear.

The outer limits of my mind, where the chaos lives. The place where I can’t move through.

The outer limits of my mind, where the chaos lives. A place that I am not to visit.

The outer limits of my mind, where the chaos lives.

I made the mistake of going to the outer limits where the chaos lives and almost gave up on myself.

I am grateful for the two who could pull me back to the inner workings of my mind where there is peace. They laugh while they do it, but they never let me go.