Perception

Your perception of me almost became my truth. Everything you said threw me into a frenzy had me questioning everything that I had ever done. Questioning who I was and if I were as bad as of a person that I felt like I were in that moment.

Your perception of me almost became my truth. Which is crazy to me because I’m not responsible for the way you experience me. I’m not responsible for how you take in my decisions. The way you experience me should have no bearing on me.

The reason why I let it this time is because I love you and take everything you say and internalize it. This time you threw me in a frenzy and I had to find a way to break through all of your words. In breaking through I realized I’m not responsible for the way you or anyone else experiences me.

I won’t take on the responsibility of trying to convince someone of how I’m experiencing life because my experience is mine and mine only. My truth is mine and mine only. I can’t be held down by your perception of me. Your experience of me can not become my truth.

People can stand in the same room, same event and still mix up details or have different accounts of what happened. It’s all about what you choose to see. I can’t make you see what I see and I no longer care to try to especially when I’m not responsible for how you experience me. I know you love me and just want the best for me, but your perception of me almost became my truth. That’s where I have to draw lines for myself because if i learned anything out of this conversation i learned I’m not responsible for the way you experience me.