I live

I live for the stars, the moon and the sun. Everything that I do is to get closer… to fly beyond the sky. I look to the sky for my most brilliant ideas. I look to the clouds just to feel like I’m floating away. The stars show me which direction to go in. I live for this intricate system that dwells inside of me. The warmth I feel from the sun rejuvenates every part of my being. I live for the stars, the moon and the sun. They don’t know that I exist just a speck in this vast universe but yet I live for them. I live because of them, I live because they show me new life. A painting in the sky each day brings forth a new picture. The renewal of the moon is just like the renewal of my spirit each phase brings forth more light. I live for them and they don’t even know I exist.

I chose me

Pick and choose and I made my choice.

I chose me over you. I chose happiness over something that’s made me more than empty. Now it’s time to fill me back up with greatness. The stars are aligned and the path is more than clear. That light I spoke about once before shines brighter than ever. It’s not you it’s me has a brand new meaning because it’s the truth. There’s nothing that could’ve been done that would make me okay. There’s nothing that could’ve been done that would have made me complete. There’s nothing that could’ve been done that would make me want more. It’s a sad reality but it’s the reality of the situation. Everything had to come from me and I was stagnant in that space. Now I’m free and seeing the most potential. Potential that I didnt know existed. I lie I knew it was there it was just buried in massive amounts of darkness. The darkness dissipated and the light exudes brighter than ever.

The real question

What do you do when you feel helpless and alone? How do you cope and heal from pain that you can’t pin point?

What happens to the body when its consumed by darkness? What happens to the dreams that die in the dark?

What happens when you become not enough? What happens when the people around you can’t help you?

Is ignorance as really blissful as it may seem? Is it better to not see yourself and others around you?

Why should you right because then you don’t have to make moves. Moves to helping yourself and others around you.

You don’t have to find the will to be strong and keep going.

Fighting everything in your body to not be better. Better than yesterday and the day before that. So comfortable in your darkness because your demons love you the most.

But the real question is are you really alive?

The beginning of my journey

I would have to say my journey started years ago I asked myself who are truly and that little voice answered you’re an egotistical bitch.

I thought to myself well damn I thought I was better than that but looking at myself I had to be honest, and realized that I didn’t do anything that didn’t benefit me. There was always an underlying reason for every move I made.

In that moment I started to read the bible daily but after awhile that became not enough. I felt comforted but something else was missing.

No matter what truth I was seeking out I ended up falling into a depression becoming detached from myself and everything around me. I was just going through the motions of life not feeling anything.

Until everything started to go wrong my father passed away a few days after his funeral found out my daughter had a benign brain tumor and would need surgery and chemotherapy. Along with a tremendous amount of loss that year. The following year my cousin, my soul mate my everything passed away and that’s what truly jumped started my journey.

This journey to get back to my true self the one that’s truly connected to God/The universe/The Source whichever feels comfortable to you.

In this journey I started to see who I truly was and where the residual and repressed pain was coming from in order to heal myself.

So I ask you who are you?