I have already apologized for what might not have been the best you felt I could do. I don’t know how long you think you could hold me hostage or how much longer you think I will allow you to hold me hostage.
I can admit that looking back, I could’ve done more, but from where I was, that’s all I had. I can’t go back in time, and I can’t make it right if you hold me hostage to my past. For years I’ve been trying to make things right through your children, and I have sacrificed some of my best years to prove that I loved you. But you took advantage, and we both have nothing to show for our sacrifices.
I was never supposed to take on your burden as my own. I understand that more than ever. All I could do was tell you that I did my best. You know, the same way you’re telling your child the same thing. You claim to hate me so severely and declare that I was such an awful parent, yet you’re following my path. Could you help me make sense of that? Please help me understand why you would hold me hostage only to be like me. The freedom you desire, I have paid the price for. I did my job as a parent, whether it was to your liking or not. Again, if I was so bad, why would you want me to have such a helping hand in raising the ones you gave birth to? I can’t say I am perfect because I am not, but I have to be better than the person you’ve built in your mind. In your heart, you know who I am, but your mind tells you there is a problem, and frankly, that has now become your problem because I have to free myself from the prison you’ve built around me.
Soul's Purpose 